infantile imbecile
5 July 2009of upsets
1. nightmare – in which real demons came to life. it was truly terrifying, and still is
2. mee siam for lunch
3. as always, who
4. recurring insecurities – may the results slip get lost in the mail and the record get obliterated for no apparent reason which may hopefully warrant me a Free re-take
(not so) surprisingly these perhaps seemingly trivial matters got me extremely riled up
like so much angst in a stupid hormonal teenager, so much anger (slashed wrists and smudged eyeliner)
cannot wait to get out of this life
i absolutely, absolutely cannot. wait
(forever fourteen, thus this useless angsty post, who cares)
dear God, please help
Say Kimchi
26 June 2009turning twenty has been eventful, not that it feels any much different, lest you consider the painful albeit apparent physical signs of aging ie sagging skin, wrinkles, flabby arms, inability to cope with strenuous activities and whatnot
but like i have said, turning twenty has been eventful (from both sides of the coin)
with all my heart, Thank You 감사합니다
for remembering and caring enough, for all the well wishes and good intentions and wholesome effort, especially the effort (i know kimchi isn’t everybody’s favourite flavour)
really i appreciate everything : )

사랑해요!
Say When
13 June 2009and my own two hands will comfort you tonight, tonight
say when
and my own two arms will carry you tonight, tonight
like an idiot
10 June 2009lately i’ve been slogging my guts out at Bejeweled Blitz on facebook (with some unintended albeit one-sided competition to prove that against a certain individual i am better, yes i am annoying that way)
after long grueling days of bejeweling i finally got a satisfactory score of 128700 (and have also eliminated my competition along the way)
so i took a break, only to return a few days later to this:
As of June 9th our previous tournament has ended and a new weekly tournament has begun. The leaderboards have been cleared and team scores have been reset. Time to climb back up to the top of your friends list!
not cool at all facebook, not cool at all
Whole Lotta Love
24 May 2009Dear Mr Adam,
granted that Kris tries really, really hard and is such a good person
still, i was looking forward to writing about your victory (wish you’d won)
but as all things go, i’m sure you know that you’re already a PHENOMENAL WINNER to a whole lot of people
with such an mind-blowing finale – singing with Kiss and Queen \m/
(also, Jason Mraz appeared along the likes of other Big Names ahahahhahaha i was so happy beyond words)
love the brilliant singing, the style, the eyeliner/nail polish/blue hair, the originality and the drive
love especially, especially the Electrifying performances that gives everyone butterflies in their stomachs (of the good kind)
really you do it like no other can, very special indeed

some crazy kind of Awesome : )
here’s to seeing a whole lot more of you around (yes please)
Love x100 With All My Heart, Me
A Hundred Thousand Words Could Not Quite Explain
13 May 2009so the volleyball kids got into top four and will be fighting for the third or fourth placing
in all honesty, i’m glad they did so well, unexpectedly as this came – Congratulations : )
but then again, they had everything in place – good groupings that worked out, dropped standards in previously stellar schools, no antagonism with the higher authorities, probably a muted cohesion that served its cohesive purposes on court nonetheless
i can only draw a conclusion from this:
don’t think anyone else would have known what it was like really
but what is past is really past, i’m only truly thankful for those who fought with and for me/us (for all the right reasons or not)
Time has been a lot more relieving than i ever knew it could be, still somehow some things are best left Unsaid
from here we move on!
