infantile imbecile

of upsets
1. nightmare – in which real demons came to life. it was truly terrifying, and still is
2. mee siam for lunch
3. as always, who
4. recurring insecurities – may the results slip get lost in the mail and the record get obliterated for no apparent reason which may hopefully warrant me a Free re-take

(not so) surprisingly these perhaps seemingly trivial matters got me extremely riled up
like so much angst in a stupid hormonal teenager, so much anger (slashed wrists and smudged eyeliner)
cannot wait to get out of this life
i absolutely, absolutely cannot. wait

(forever fourteen, thus this useless angsty post, who cares)

dear God, please help